Update is forthcoming

No news is good news and that certainly applies in this case. We had a wonderful weekend. We actually made an overnighter to NYC to take in the sights.

One minor hiccup to report though. I had been getting a little bit of a cough over the course of last week and by the time Friday morning rolled around and it was time to leave for NYC, I had a full blown respiratory infection. That did put a damper on some of our activity. Mistress Amanda said that cunnilingis just is not sexy when it has to be interrupted for coughing fits every 15 seconds. Although disappointed that I could not do this for Her, I was able to make the most of our visit in spite of being sick.

So as soon as the codeine induced stupor wears off, I will tell you all about it!
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Transparency

Well here i am with 2.5 hours til i pick up Mistress Amanda from the airport. Something that has changed drastically is that before i came clean about my kink, i would have to do a little computer cleanup before Mistress Amanda came in. We have all done it for one reason or another, deleted the browsing history and cookies. But what happens if there is a glitch in the system or our memory? What if we fail to cover up our every footprint and out secret is discovered?

For some it could ruin a marriage, ever watch Cheaters on TV? 6 months ago, i would be scouring my system, making sure Quicktime didn't save a link to video of a guy getting whipped while wearing panties with his balls tied to a hook in the floor. Now in honesty comes liberty. Write that down ;) i don't have to be ashamed of who i am. And because i have a loving wife that accepts me regardless of my many flaws i am the luckiest guy in the world.

CB update: i am in a self-imposed lockup at the moment and have been for about 24 hours how. Mistress Amanda has not required this, but i was so tempted to masturbate thinking about Her and all the time we were going to spend together doing fun things that i locked it in. Yes, i could remove it, but my integrity and desire to please is keeping this locked as a sign of loyalty. i want to save every drop of Mistress Amanda's fulfilment, enjoyment and pleasure, whether She lets me out later or not. i currently have a bread type, twisty tie holding it closed. When i get to hug Mistress Amanda at the airport, i will hand Her the lock and the key. i feel that if She chooses to keep me locked, then it should not only be under Her key, but locking the lock onto me as well. That is a very symbolic gesture of relinquishing control and i swell in the plastic thinking about it. And that is why i chose the picture for this posting, because She no doubt will be smiling.

Surprises

Mistress Amanda told me earlier in the day that She had a surprise for me, so it was only fitting that I surprise Her as well. We decided that we would not do Easter baskets, so this gift constitutes the token that I am supposed to present to Her when out of Her midst.

Since I opened my big mouth, the new strap-on is no longer a surprise. But that is ok, because now that I blabbed, I have to buy a new gift. Maybe this is why She makes me tell Her what I get Her! This way She gets multiple surprises! Very clever.

If the punctuation becomes non-existent in this post, it is because I am posting via blackberry and I have two letters per key, so sometimes the phone guesses wrong. But I am stuck with this phone for a while longer at least.
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Less than a day

Mistress Amanda will be here in less than a day, and i cannot even contain my excitement.  it has been almost a month since we were last together.  i have been cleaning up the apartment to ensure that She will be comfortable when She gets here; someone could be punished if the Queen was greeted by a pig sty.

Today is the last day of experimentation with the CB6000, trying the various rings and spacers for the perfect comfortable fit.  Once She locks it up, i will have to grin and bear it if i have chosen a less than comfortable configuration.  She would let me out if i were risking injury or something serious, but She is adamant that my devotion by chastity be on Her terms and timetable.

Even after waiting almost a month, i cannot say if i will have the pleasure of orgasming with Her, or worshipping Her gorgeous body and pussy.  i really don't know what is in store.  When we had our long weekend, our fun was largely experimental and new.  Don't get me wrong, that was absolutely great to feel those feelings for the first time.  She is growing into Her role as the Dominant and i could not be happier that She is discovering what She wants and how She wants things done.

If you read the under the boot blog, he mentioned that it started out as his kink and he was directing the activities, but as his Wife got more comfortable, She took over and now he merely obeys.  i am swelling inside my CB6000 just thinking that my relationship with Mistress Amanda will blossom much like that one has.  What made me think of Mistress Amanda following the same trajectory is what occurred on the phone just moments ago:

i had told Mistress Amanda that i was locked up and how the experimenting was going.  She wanted no part of hearing about it because She had not accepted control.  She asked me if i was ready to give over the control to Her and i had to pause and think for a second.  i am attempting what i think will be the most comfortable fit, i have been training myself into the device with increasing hours too.  After deliberating, i answered that i was not ready, for two reasons.  i needed one more day to experiment and try to get the fit right, and the second and more important reason is that when Mistress Amanda officially locks it for the first time in a non-experimental setting, i think it more appropriate to be in person and for Her to hold the actual key.

i sent Mistress Amanda an email this morning describing how it felt when the metallic click of the lock sounded as i pushed the pieces together.  i have been having to pause to shut the lock and it is almost ceremoniously  that i do this because i am savoring the moment and the sound.  The action of giving my devotion to Mistress Amanda signified by a staccato click.  Next time i hear the click, it will be Her beautifully manicured fingers that squeeze the lock together, followed by what will very likely be a toothy grin.

Happy Palm Sunday

Ok, so its Palm Sunday and this never dawned on me before which is really surprising, because i am one of those people with a really lewd sense of humor.  i was thinking to myself that i wont be using my palm on Palm Sunday because i am currently locked up.

Anyone else not "celebrating" Palm Sunday.

Three more days

i am on pins and needles and i don't know if i can make it three more days until Wednesday morning when Mistress Amanda flies into town to see me for a very long weekend.  She is on the road at a conference, so our phone time has been limited.  

If She weren't in a conference, our phone time would still be limited because i had the misfortune to drop my Blackberry in the toilet at work and it died.  Luckily, i had the insurance, but DHL can't get my replacement to me until Monday.  So i got so antsy wanting to hear her voice i got a cheap prepay phone to get me by until Monday (tomorrow).  Normally i would have just used a payphone, but those are hard to find these days, except in airports, bus stations, etc.

So, i have been doing some training on the CB6000 to increase wearing time, if Mistress Amanda desires to keep me under lock and key for a longer period, She will have the option.  i have been wearing it to sleep every day.  That has worked out pretty well, i have a pretty snugly hanging scrotum, so i am certainly in need of a good stretch.  The longest i have worn it is eleven hours, so i have a long way to go.  While we are apart i don't think Mistress Amanda will keep me locked and under Her orders, since She isn't here to supervise the break in period.  She has said that upon returning home we will be focusing on quality and not quantity of orgasms, sending a wicked shiver up my spine.

So it is locked now, i changed the configuration yesterday.  i was using the largest ring and the next to largest spacer.  i had a painful slip through yesterday.  i cannot describe the feeling of the ball while being pulled, squeezing through such a narrow gap with a sharp pain.  It isn't a dull, long pain, it is a short "pop" and then its over.  So yesterday, after the slip out, i downsized to the next to the largest ring, and the smallest spacer.  This ring was definitely tighter around me, and i could pull it away from my body without the feeling i was going to slip through.  The problem was that the smallest spacer wasn't allowing a big enough gap for the testicle to get blood and started feeling numb.

So off came the cage part and i put in the next to the smallest spacer, which seems to be working out.  i have not decided on a final configuration, because tomorrow i am going to use the same spacer i am currently using with the largest ring to see if it prevents slipping out and is comfortable.  i would be interested to know about other guys who are wearing these.  Do you change configurations with the varying levels of engorgement, or did you experiment for a perfect fit and that is what you wear each time you wear it?  i would like to have one configuration, so Mistress Amanda can tie my hands and completely put it on me without pinching, etc.  So we can see if it is possible that i may never touch "Her" cock again.

Funny side note.  Like most couples and lovers, we sign our letters and emails with X's and O's.   We started using other symbols too, it just kind of happened spontaneously.  Here is the key:

X = Kiss

O = Hug

P = Big lick

p = Little lick

L = Locked in CB6000

S = Suck

C = Cum

, = Precum Drips

So with that in mind, here is what i got this morning:

XOXOXOPPPPppppPPPPPSSSSSS,,,,, 

Notice anything, like there is no "c" at the end of this teasing?!  i thought it was quite delicious myself.  The best part is that it is a code that i can email to Mistress Amanda at work, or vice versa.  Gives us an extra something to look forward to.

Our Wonderful Weekend Part 3

After trying on our new toys and getting my man parts stuffed into the CB6000, we adjourned upstairs to the bedroom, where the windows aren't so big and we could have some intimate privacy.  i have to tell our readers that the first experience in a CB6000 is not all that comfortable.  It is impossible to start to put it on without developing some thickness of an erection starting.  Once even the slightest filling of blood begins, the device becomes next to impossible to get into.  Also, my first thought was, "Oh no, we ordered the wrong size, this one is for toddlers!"  So, with the largest ring squeezing and pinching me, and then adding the other components, which also squeezed and pinched me i came to the conclusion that i must like being squeezed and pinched, because it did nothing to reduce the half-mast flagpole that i was sporting.   So the largest ring was on, and the largest spacer was fastening the cage to the ring.  At this point Mistress Amanda decided it was time to violate me in a way that i have not been violated before in our relationship.  Out came the butt plug, which was purported to be a size medium.  i was not aware when i ordered this plug that a medium was quite large, but then again, maybe i am just being a sissy.  So Mistress Amanda started working it in, while i lie on my side.  She slowly worked it into me, but i still was not quite able to take the girth.  She fed me what my ass could accept and we were enjoying the long moment savoring another "first".  This has been a long running tradition for us, the first time we do things together, we call it a "first"  this does not pertain to only kink, but to other things too.  For instance, the first time we went snorkeling together, etc.

So there we were enjoying the "first time Mistress Amanda violated my ass" and then after we finished and i rolled over, i discovered that perhaps i gave myself way too much credit in the size department, because the CB6000 managed to find its way off my body.  This came as a shock to both of us, because we thought it was foolproof.  After studying the device and my anatomy, we decided that the ring was still the right fit, but the spacer was too long.  The spacer is an interesting item because if you go to long, it will let the cock slide out and then the balls will follow one at a time, but if you choose one that is too tight the blood supply to the sac and testes will be scrunched.  More on that later, since i don't want to bore my dear readers.

Since i was out of the device and we were dead tired at this point, we took a nap. . .   i think.  You see, this weekend was such a sex and domination fest, not counting the reunion after time apart that i can remember what happened, but just not the order it happened it.  i know that the next morning, Mistress Amanda locked me all up nice and tight, pantied me and then we went to brunch.  It was exhilarating being locked up out in public for the first time.  It added so much fun to our day to know we had a secret.  We went from there to the library, where Mistress Amanda picked up some DVDs and books, while i was still locked up.  Funny thing is that in this state, i was so hyper attentive to Her.  Never more than a couple feet away, brushing up against Her and touching Her every chance i got.  In the past, i would have disappeared into the library and looked at things that interested me, while She took stock of the things that interested Her, and then we would reunite to leave.  Not anymore, nothing in the library could possibly compete with my complete attention and interest in Mistress Amanda.  i could not wait to get home and beg for release after a morning together.

Luckily since i am a novice wearer of the CB6000, Mistress Amanda has broken me in slowly in terms of wearing time.  Upon arrival at home, we removed the device and Mistress Amanda diapered me, the She went to check Her email.  The diaper didn't stay on long, because we were upstairs again in short order.  She had treated me by going down on me and allowing me to take the Dominant role for a while.  Although i enjoy tying Mistress Amanda and restraining Her beautiful female form, i know that i am the submissive and here is why.  We were in a position where i was balancing on the headboard and She was below me as i was fucking Her mouth; a very Dominant position.  In this position, i was having so much trouble concentrating, and i could not orgasm like this.  This has happened since we have been married, i have not been able to orgasm in Her mouth, or the mouth of any other partners before Mistress Amanda and i were married.  Maybe it is a different kind of stimulation that i respond to; i know Mistress Amanda is disappointed that i have not been able to appreciate Her skill at fellatio and i will continue to try to enjoy this.  Maybe it is because of the implications that i have trouble getting off.  i don't know but it is a work in progress.

So for the next hour or so, i placed clothes pins on Mistress Amanda's body, ordered Her into the positions that i wanted Her in.  i used the riding crop on Her thighs and spread Her legs so i could use Peter Cottontail on Her.  Sometime during this part, the roles changed back to normal.  She was having trouble orgasming in the submissive role.  It was not until the clothespins were removed and i was submissively eating Her succulent pussy that She started to feel the throes of passion and ultimately orgasmed.  i will continue to try to give Her a break and take the lead, but we both learned that She is the Domme, and i am Her submissive, even when i am "in charge".

After She came from my efforts using my mouth, She got out the Wartenburg wheel and clothespins.  Between these two implements, She made me cry.  She stopped when She saw tears, but i later had to tell Her to keep going even if i cry because i still have a safeword if i need it.  After some pain play, She make me lie down and jerk off just enough to sustain an erection.  i had trouble getting erect because of the frequency of our sessions that weekend, i was so disappointed because i always desire to please Mistress Amanda, and if i don't achieve an erection, i am so scared that somehow She will blame Herself for not being, _______enough (insert: sexy, good, thin in front of enough).

Finally She figured out just the right words to say to me to instantly make me erect.  "If you can't get it up we might as well lock it back up" and "You are not going to get to put it inside me until it is rock hard".  Boing, She is learning how to push my buttons and is playing me like a fiddle in such a short time.  She mounted me and rode me, and it was so blissful.  After i ejaculated inside Her we cuddled for a long while.

After that session, we eventually went to dinner and then returned home to cuddle and start packing me back up for our weekend was over.  The next morning when we woke, we had passionate vanilla sex for our final goodbye.  It was the position where we spoon, and i enter Her from inside.  She doesn't realize that even this isn't vanilla for me, because from this angle, i cannot get deep penetration and Her pussy only teases the head and maybe a third of the shaft, so i still get a submissive buzz from this as well.

So that was our weekend.

On another note, i thought of something that illustrates the level our passion has risen to.  On our first night in the hotel, Mistress Amanda had the first vaginal orgasm of Her life with a partner.  The only prior one was solo, with a toy.  i was giving Peter Cottontail a hand, while Mistress Amanda lie on Her back in the bed.  She responded beautifully to my ministrations with the dildo and gave me a most glorious sense of accomplishment by sharing a "first" with me.  She still remains a clitoral orgasm Woman, and that is ok, because i like helping Her with those also.

Our Wonderful Weekend Part 2

Since i am off work this weekend and it has been pretty gloomy being all alone, i am remembering how great my last weekend off was when i flew home to be reunited with Mistress Amanda.  i know She shares my sentiments, because She is having a rough go of things this weekend Herself. The furnace went out during one of the coldest times of the year forcing Her to use an electric blanket to stay warm until the furnace guy gets there.  Plus, she is preparing to leave later this week for a long work-related stint on the road, after which, She will fly to the East Coast to see yours truly!  But all the packing and deciding what to bring is stressing Her a little, along with the normal household maintenance and animal care, which is not easy in my extended absence.  So perhaps She too will read this post and be taken a couple weeks back to a happier day.  So here goes:

So there we were in the car, heading for home.  But before we got too far from the hotel, Mistress Amanda wanted to get some Dunkin' Donuts, a rare treat, because there isn't one close to our home.  So we stopped and got some donuts for the road.  i am of the opinion that She was subconsciously craving Dunkin' Donuts all along and here is why:  Dunkin' Donuts uses pink and orange as their main colors in their logos, signage, etc.  A few days prior, Mistress Amanda had picked out some panties for me to wear for Her and guess what color they were?  Anyone, Anyone, Bueller, Anyone?  There was a multipack of three and the main colors in the panty color scheme:  pink and orange.  So that's why the picture is of the panties.  So, there we were heading home, but before we got there we stopped for a quick bite of lunch and then made the 2 hour drive.

Upon getting home, there were packages on the door.  We knew one of them was the CB6000 that we had hoped would have made it sooner, but we were ecstatic to have it.  At least one of us was ecstatic, the other of us was happy, but nervous, and maybe aroused too, well no not maybe, definitely aroused and maybe even dripping.  But the other package was there and it was not a very big box, so we didn't know what was in there.  Who would have ever thought that leather thigh high boots can fit in a regular shoe box!  But they did and Mistress Amanda was very pleased to see them, but even more joyous when she tried them on and viola!  A perfect fit.

Now that She had tried on Her new toy, it was time for me to try on my new toy.  Upon examining the rings, i thought they looked kind of small.  So i chose the largest ring and the largest spacer for a trial fit.  Mistress Amanda was grinning from ear to ear as i was twisting my scrotum to make it fit.  The other problem is that i can be flaccid and the minute the CB touches me, instant arousal that makes it difficult to get the cage together.  So after 45 minutes of scrotum twisting and skin pinching and hair pulling it went on and was all pieced together.  The only part that remained was the lock, which Mistress Amanda placed into the right spot and with a simple click that caused one of the widest smiles of Her life, She now had me under complete control.

Part 3 coming later!