Transparency

Well here i am with 2.5 hours til i pick up Mistress Amanda from the airport. Something that has changed drastically is that before i came clean about my kink, i would have to do a little computer cleanup before Mistress Amanda came in. We have all done it for one reason or another, deleted the browsing history and cookies. But what happens if there is a glitch in the system or our memory? What if we fail to cover up our every footprint and out secret is discovered?

For some it could ruin a marriage, ever watch Cheaters on TV? 6 months ago, i would be scouring my system, making sure Quicktime didn't save a link to video of a guy getting whipped while wearing panties with his balls tied to a hook in the floor. Now in honesty comes liberty. Write that down ;) i don't have to be ashamed of who i am. And because i have a loving wife that accepts me regardless of my many flaws i am the luckiest guy in the world.

CB update: i am in a self-imposed lockup at the moment and have been for about 24 hours how. Mistress Amanda has not required this, but i was so tempted to masturbate thinking about Her and all the time we were going to spend together doing fun things that i locked it in. Yes, i could remove it, but my integrity and desire to please is keeping this locked as a sign of loyalty. i want to save every drop of Mistress Amanda's fulfilment, enjoyment and pleasure, whether She lets me out later or not. i currently have a bread type, twisty tie holding it closed. When i get to hug Mistress Amanda at the airport, i will hand Her the lock and the key. i feel that if She chooses to keep me locked, then it should not only be under Her key, but locking the lock onto me as well. That is a very symbolic gesture of relinquishing control and i swell in the plastic thinking about it. And that is why i chose the picture for this posting, because She no doubt will be smiling.