That thing i do

It is amazing how my life has changed.  Not just in terms of my coming clean, but with everything else.  Usually after work, i stop to get a coffee, or a snack.  Since i am on night shift, getting Dunkin Donut is something that i previously did.  Not only bad to make a habit of, but costly as well.

Now i am in such a hurry to get back to the apartment, just to hear the voice of Mistress Amanda on the phone.  i hunger for Her much more than anything else.  i would wager that i lost at least 5 pounds this week.  i can't eat, i can't sleep and it is like being in love all over again.  i suppose it should be because i am very much in love, and in sync with Mistress Amanda.  i crave Her;  she might kill me, i sent at least seven emails to Her inbox over the course of the night telling Her how much i crave Her and love Her.  Not that they wake Her up because i am on the night shift, but i know She has to deal with full inboxes at Her work, seven days a week.

On that note, that was one of my cop outs for not telling Her sooner.  i thought She was too busy to take an interest.  Boy was i wrong, and delightedly so.  It is stunning to me that i am capable of this level of devotion.  i am not even in person or locked up at this time, and i crave Her attention and affection and companionship so bad i literally feel anxious all the time.  i can't complain because i am loving this.

To the guys:  There is such BDSM in the mainstream these days, that you can certainly use some of it to your benefit.  i mean you can point them to Elise Sutton (nothing against Her or Her work) and risk overwhelming them.  Or you can use the TV Boss commercial spot where the mom tells the Dominatrix that she is blocking her on the television.  Or another example is the Ikea commercial.  Anything that can be an icebreaker with maybe a little humor would serve you well.